The Sudden Leap
I Am That I Am
When, at last, we are ready to see, Reality will flash upon us, the whole universe of phenomena will be seen as it really is; its power to hamper and afflict us will be instantaneously destroyed ... and nothing will remain for us except the duty of pointing the way so that others in their turn may achieve the Ultimate Vision just as we have done.
When that momentous intuition and shift of consciousness occurs within us, we shall discover that 'the separate me' does not exist or ever has existed except in our thoughts. There will be, in that instant, the knowing that we are not our thoughts, feelings, body or personality, but the awareness of them -- Awareness that is also aware of Itself.
It will be apparent that this Awareness is perfectly quiescent, a pure void in that it is utterly without form, characteristics, opposites, plurality, subject, object or anything at all on which to lay hold; and yet that it is certainly not void in that it is the beginningless beginning and endless end of all the phenomena which from moment to moment contribute to the unceasing flux of what we call 'existence'.
This void is at once the container and the contained, the one and the many, the neither-one-nor-many, the doomed and the deathless, relativity and ultimate truth, Samsara and Nirvana, without a hairsbreadth of difference between any of these or other pairs.
Perceiving this, we shall seem to others to have taken a sudden leap, as though from somewhere to nowhere. Indeed, 'sudden leap', though inaccurate, is perhaps the best term with which to describe the process. Yet, in truth, we shall have leapt from nowhere to nowhere; hence, we shall not have leapt at all; nor will there be or has there ever been any 'we' to make the leap!
Nothing will have changed except 'our' point of view. What was formerly misperceived in the light of our little egos, 'we' shall now rightly perceive in the glorious light of egolessness (the Light of Consciousness).
Thenceforward, though 'our' environment - the surrounding flux - will continue its moment-to-moment transformations as before, 'we' shall be capable of seeing all this play of phenomena as tiny ripples upon the surface of changelessness - 'we' shall clearly recognize the changelessness of change!
As a mirror impartially reflects green and red, black and white, without being to the smallest extent affected by any of them; as the spray of a waterfall reflects all the colours of the rainbow without losing its colourless purity; as dreamers behold acts of love and violence without moving so much as a hand; so does the mind of an Enlightened One react to the ceaseless play of phenomera.
All of this will be more or less so in the deepest spiritoal sense, and yet we should beware of taking these analogies' of mirror, spray and dreamer too concretely, for even a mirror suggests a plurality of the reflector, the act of reflecting and the thing reflected, whereas these three do not in truth differ from one another; so that, beyond a certain point, even the mirror is a mere analogy - another raft to be discarded once the river is crossed.
Adapted from the introduction to: The Zen Teaching of Hui Hai: On Sudden Illumination by John Blofeld.
I Am That I Am
Invariably, it takes a flash of light to reveal the true meaning of Life and of all things to us: nor can it be obtained in any other way.
As the veil lifts, one moment's sudden revelation completely rearranges and shifts our viewpoint; and the scene abruptly changes. In fact, this was exactly what happened to me one day while in deep meditation.
I was considering 'Spirituality', its study and problems, when suddenly it dawned upon me that the student-position, which I had assumed, was certainly an unreliable and unsound one.
As this actuality burst upon me, breathlessly my heart cried out, "Oh to be the great subject itself instead of a mere stidemt of it!"
Instantly there followed a moment of shining light with its electrifying transfusion, sudden and swift. As though a curtain had been raised admitting some startling new sight, I saw the indisputable fact with vivid, clear distinctness -- I saw that I was the Truth ItSelf ... not a student at all!
Under this flood of blazing revelation, what else could I do but exclaim further, -- "Why, this means that I am the TRUTH! I am not a student trying to solve problems of human existence, but I am the absolute and changeless Truth itself!" The simplicity of all this amazed and overwhelmed me. Here in this brief but thrilling moment, I saw what years of study and research had never given me.
Immediately, I then understood Jesus' dynamic statement, "I am the Truth!" Yes, this was it. I was not a student of Truth, endeavoring to obtain and attain certain states of consciousness, always letting go one for another higher on the scale. No, I was the Truth ItSelf!
What more then could I ask? What more could be desired? Did Truth, or true Being, have any association with a problem? Certainly not. Neither, then, did I!
"I am the Truth!" exuberantly I told myself again and again, in my newly found changed relationship. I am not trying to do, to think or to know something; but I am doing, feeling and being Truth, the Life, and the Way! Oh, the blessed wonder of light!
I saw then that the problem of human existence could never be solved ... but will dissolve when we take our rightful stand as the Truth, the Life and the Way.
Now once having seen and accepted this platform, all other speculations immediately vanished, while beautiful verifications in Jesus" life and teaching came flooding my rapturous thought. How plainly now to see that Jesus never said that he was a student of Life, but insisted, "I am the Life!" Neither did he intimate that he was a follower of some particular way or system, but again and again reiterated, "I am the Way!"
No wonder he was so absolute, so completingly certain and sure. Never did he speak nor act as though he were using Truth as a means to bring about certain healing results in a material existence! His attention was NOT towards conditions, states nor beliefs, but upon that Being which is unalterable; that Principle which is fixed and absolute; that Life which is wholeness always ... 'Against such there is no law.'
So, 'Know thyself!' Learn Who and What you really are; the meaning of life and the fullness of all things. Then for you, wars and problems will cease and be no more; sorrows and limitations fade away; for finding yourself as you really are, you shall be in touch with every good and perfect thing; and shall live here on earth a life of peace, joy and plenty.
~ From: The Christ Within by Lillian DeWaters